Simple.

I wish MY life was simple. I wish i had many friends that i love, a school i liked, a boyfriend to love and a beautiful wardrobe and body. I wish i was happy and did not dream all day about aborter life. I have dich a hard time being happy about myself and who i am. I know i got to accept it but it’s so hard. I know I am a good person but it just doesn’t seren like others think that. I care what other people think, wether i like it or not. But i wish my life could be like i want it to be. But right now, everything seems wrong. 

My best friend❤️

My proviant of need

There is a couple of things every individual person needs for satisfaction, some things we couldn’t do without. For me all of them takes place in my bag. Things you need as a human being is for example food becasue we would die without it but now I mean things we crave to use our creative minds. Material we need to express ourselves. The things I need for example in my bag is:

• My earphones: Because I need music in my ears like… all the time.
• An empty writing book for me to write down important things in and just doodle + a pen.
• A lip balm & body lotion.
• An Iphone charger.
• Of course my Iphone too (or the charger is unnecessary lol)
• An interesting book to read.
• And at last a cup of coffee in my hand. (addicted)

Though I wouldn’t say I am a material girl, i like more the thought of be comfortable. To have everything I need because I am very forgetful so I am always worrying about if I have forgot about something.

Happy

Why are there so many people who are unhappy? How come so much people feel bad about their lives and wishes themselves away? Why can’t people just be happy and some other just let others be happy? There is so much hate everywhere and real love feels rare these days. You never know what’s real love and what’s fake.

I like to be alone. Sometimes I don’t feel like socializing and enjoy more to just be by myself. But sometimes I look next to me and wonder where the hell my true friends are? I do have a boyfriend and he is awesome. But he is not happy, just like me. And I can’t understand why cause he has a lot of friends, a nice life and a great family. I also have a great family but not that many friends and a mediocre life (for now anyways) I believe it will get better as soon as I get older but right now, it’s so messy.

But that’s the thing about me. No matter how bad it gets, I always believes it will get better. That’s why I am here and haven’t given up. And I am proud of that.

My time of happiness will come. But when I look around I see so much misery and I quote The Black Eyed Peas:

Where is the love?

Happiness

What is happiness?

Eating breakfast in bed in front of the computer with your favourite serie showing on the screen? Waking up to your lovers face and see them smile at you like it’s only you and him? Travel and feeling flavours of different coultures on you tongue?

Yes, what is it really?

No one knows, I think. Except the people who has a living of different livestyles all the time. The people who never have the time to look at their lives and think:

Am I wasting it?

Those people are living their life to the fullest. I don’t think life is being stuck at one place for your whole life where you don’t even enjoy it. The only thing you can buy that will make you richer is a travel. Ever heard that? Well, I think it’s true. I have never woken upp in a foreign country and felt: I want to go home now to my normal life. Ant I don’t even think it is about just the travel, but the feeling of freedom and doing absolutly what you want to.

When I have had a taste of different, I want more.

My addictions

I have a lot of both strange and quite normal addictions. The normal are for example:

• Sugar; all my life I have been quite addicted to sugar (all food basicly) but of course everyone love candy. But the last couple of years I have had a fear of candy, a fear to digest sugar. Mostly because most people nowadays think that the perfect human, or woman, is skinny til the bones and that being fat or even more than skinny is ugly. Nowadays one out of five girls around me has eating disorders, including me. Tis is not a progress, this is new to humanity. Even during the 18th century when skinny was the ideals, it wasn’t this bad. Of course people died then oo, not from starvation like now but because they couldn’t breath but isn’t it pretty sad that in a modern world like this, where poeple starve from lack of food, we intentionally starve our selves because we want to be enough? We want to be beautiful but who has decided that eating no food is the only way to be beautiful. It just makes me so angry to think about it.
• Coffee, is also one of my addictions. Of course coffee is nothing like the one above but it’s still is an addiction. It’s not like smoking or alcohol that kills people and some people wouldn’t even call it addictive. But for me, it REALLY is. Irrelevant

But something I am addicted to that is quite strange (maybe not so but yeah) is to express myself. All my life I have been quiet about my thoughts and feelings. I have kept them inside of me and lot letting them show. But I actually have a lot going on in there, even though it may not look that way by looking at me. Like every human being, everyone has a lot going on but others don’t notice or care. I  really think people are titled to their own opinion too that’s why I don’t understand people who are easily offended. Maybe you don’t agree with what someone else thinks, but you can still shut up and listen. Maybe the person says something that concerns you or may be interesting to you. This blogg is all about me expressing myself, some may think I am stupid, negative or a coward. But I don’t care. This is my opinions and I have the right to express them. With all respect.

To be armed.

If you think about it, life on earth is not infinite like Albert Einstein claims that the universe and human stupidity is. I agree with him, at least when it comes to human stupidity, or naivety. But when it comes to the universe it actually depends on human stupidity or knowledge. Because any scientist can tell us that if the earth continues being treated by us like it is now, it will not live much longer. But if humans starts to think, react and act from a more realistic point of view… maybe we have a chance of turning the conditions around and prevent the earth from dying. People seem to believe that the faith is pre-determined and then act like it’s doomed, but it’s not. And I am not a scientist or anything but I believe in it, more than humanity anyway. If people not starting to think with their over-intelligent brains, I believe humanity is lost.

Of course, I am an human myself and I am not saying I hate my species. There are some people with hope. Some people who cares, who believes, who would fight to prevent what is happening. But unfortunately the pople who don’t is the majority.